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[Feb. 23rd, 2012|06:57 pm] |
Hey Livejournal! :D
I don't think I have any active people watching this journal any more, but anyway I thought I'd try to start updating just for me :P
So I'm still in England, and despite losing flare for it in the third year to such a point of stress and misery that I almost didn't have the motivation to make it through to the end, I finished my undergrad in Computer Animation and Visualization, by the skin of my teeth and have a shiny degree to show for it. Well. It's not that shiny, I expected a nice medievally scroll with a seal and a rosette or something equally magnificent, but instead printer paper with a mighty hologram, askew as well. :P Three years of blood and toil adequately rewarded!
If any of you are interested in seeing the fruits of that labour please see here: http://pspynett.deviantart.com/gallery/33086129#/d3fpedl
I am now no longer in Bournemouth, but up in remarkably more sunny /end sarcasm, Gloucester. I am now studying a Masters Degree in Equine Science at UWE.
Yup. Big change. I'm hoping to create a 3D horse forelimb that walks trots and canters as my thesis, and that can be skinned and have the muscles removed down to the bones as a teaching tool, and very hopefully get offered a PhD to finish the entire horse and work for a year or two lecturing. That would be great, though if I'm perfectly honest, I want to take a little time out to work abroad, or further abroad as it were, Canada or the US is my preference, but happy to spend a little time down under if I can.
I am lucky enough to be leasing an amazing pony now, though about 4 months into the lease it was discovered that he has a painful condition called kissing spine, and he is on semi-retirement now until I can raise the money for his operation. Here is his fund page of anyone has a spare buck to put toward a pony in pain: http://www.gofundme.com/9tjk4
Other than that I play Horse Art Roleplay Game on DA for fun to keep my art up now at the following accounts if anyone is interested in art :D :
http://impulseec.deviantart.com/
http://the-bone-yard.deviantart.com/
I have two lovely dogs that drive me insane and a lovely house 15 minutes from uni and the yard. It's good stuff :D
But yeah is anyone still out there? I miss the friends I had on here :D |
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| Woo gravy! |
[Mar. 19th, 2010|08:13 am] |
I'm waiting for the train from ewell to Waterloo and thought I'd use my trusty iPhone for an update. I will mention that I have just called my iPhone steed forevermore because of having just refered to it as trusty. OoOo here's the train. I'm off into London for my second day of the pixar masterclass, OMG it's story today, really excited that's my niche! I would like it known that I learnt more about animation yesterday than I have in the entire two years I've been studying at bournemouth. And my peers feel the same. It's quite annoying. So glad I did this though. Otherwise I have my British Horse Society Stge 2 exam (again) on the 6th of April and another handin for computer programming on this Friday coming. Weeeeee! Busybusybusy. How is everyone? Internetland is quiet lately. Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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| A different week. |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|06:11 pm] |
So I pushed a 2000 word essay out on pre production in the mainstream animation industy in in a day, submitted it, and drove to Epsom for a riding lesson on Harley, which started out ok, but halfway through my confidence was gone again and I started getting left behind and he started ducking out again. Sigh. Though to be fair dean wasn't exactly helpful cause he was all "ok grid of three with one stride inbetween" then " ok you did that well but with some problems, let's do a bounce!" mine and the horses confidence aren't great and he wants to stick a 17.2 hand monster into a freaking metre of space. Augh. On the train to London now to see les miserables with joe and simeon. Woo! Pixar masterclass tomorrow. Excited. Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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| This is the end, if you want it. |
[Mar. 12th, 2010|04:34 pm] |
You're not the first thing in my life I've loved and lost.
Yeah I've felt worse things that I might be less inclined to merely just shrug off. If I was hasty maybe I was rushed along.
I won't move into little boxes and then not get the urge to move on. I took the fire escape and made it out alive.
I still burn from time to time but at least it's helped me to decide. So think real slow.
Don't forget that yes means yes and no means no.
You'd take me home.
Like my family did my father did I know. I've,
been convincing myself,
that I'm worthwhile.
Cause I'm worth what I'll,
Convince myself,
To be. Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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| Sigh... |
[Mar. 7th, 2010|11:52 am] |
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I miss you....so much.
All I want to do is beg you for another chance at this, but that isn't me, and its definitely not the me you fell for, and after what has happened it should be when you decide you want this.
So I'll sit here and miss you.
Till it subsides a bit, then I can get up and miss you. Walk and miss you. And so on... |
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[Mar. 1st, 2010|11:01 am] |
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Wow....of all the places to sit. The one place where I have no choice but to look at you/hear you very loudly and clearly.
As if it wasn't hard enough.
I even tried to pay attention for a while, but when you spent the entire break over helping Nicola with something, something you never would have been able to do confidently before meeting me, my resolve has died. Then Adam comes over and asks how I'm doing with the exercise, and I don't want to lie anymore so I tell the truth, that I'm not paying attention and I don't want to lie to him.
You laugh while I die inside. And you don't answer my txt about talking about it in the break. Cause thats what this has become. |
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[Feb. 24th, 2010|01:06 pm] |
Ok so.
Here we go.
The boy I've been seeing for the last 18 months and was heaven set on being with forever has dumped me, the reason given was religious differences. Fair enough.
He does this the night before my Stage 2 British Horse Society Stable Management and Riding Exam, which I subsequently failed due to being and I quote: "...distracted and unbalanced, not as attentive as you should be, and if we let you continue riding you could be a danger to yourself and others." Not as cool.
Please bear in mind I have been riding since I was 4 years old and have participated at both regional, provincial and to a lesser extent national B team level by basic qualification and being financially able to take part, in South Africa in both Dressage and Showjumping.
I'm trying to tell myself it was just a really bad day.
Now I am a housemate short for the new year, and my landlord wants to sign the contracts next week, and I'm worried I won't be able to take care of the two dogs I wanted to get at the end of the summer, all on my own.
Well. Lol. What's done is done.
I'm not letting it get in the way. I lost myself in that relationship, gave up my dreams of becoming a Disney/Pixar animator, stopped paying attention to Uni, and lost myself in the horses. Haven't been budgeting properly, have started living in debt, so right now I need to dig out my snow plough I put away 18 months ago and start to backtrack through all the crap. MUST BE DONE.
OFF I GO.
PS: Pixar 2010 internships have just come up. INSPIRATION MUCH?!
Have my motivation song lyrics for this week:
Relient K - Here I Go
Believe me I have tried
To work this out from the inside
Then I finally realized
I just need to move on with my life
Gotta make something happen
Not just sit around and wait for it
This place is like a prison
I think I'm going to make a break for it
WhoaWhoa
Here I go
It's like we're living for the first time
WhoaWhoa
Here I go
And I think that it's the first time I've felt alive
I've been suppressed
I've been let down
Been pushed aside
Been pushed around
There's only one thing that I need
That's something you can't take from me
Gotta make something happen
Not just sit around and wait for it
This place is like a prison
I think I'm going to make a break for it
WhoaWhoa
Here I go
It's like I'm living for the first time
WhoaWhoa
Here I go
And I think that it's the first time I've felt alive
Move up
Move on
You blink and I'm gone
I finally got one life to live
I'll live it now
You have your doubts
I'll prove them wrong
This is the one true thing I know
So here I go
Whoa
Here I go
It's like we're living for the first time
Whoa
Here I go
And I think that it's the first time I've felt alive |
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